I’ve been really struggling with motivation as of late. I’m going through the motions of training, but I’m just not feeling it. I think that once I get through my first triathlon of the season, that will change. Once I remember how awesome that feels, I’ll be excited to get moving again.
But I’m also looking into working with a coach. Not in person, just remotely. But I could use someone to tell me what to do and berate me when I don’t do it and encourage me when I’m feeling low. I think that part of my problem right now is that I don’t have confidence in my training plan. Sure, it’s a good plan, but I’m not sure it’s right for me. Someone who will create a fluid training plan will be a definite help. Plus if I’m paying for it, I’m more likely to stick to it, right?
In other news, tomorrow is my 1500m Open Water Swim. I’m nervous and excited. It’s 2 750m loops, which will be a good way to break it up in my mind. I know I can cover the distance with no trouble. The goal is just to stay out of my head. I can do it. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Maybe I should watch Finding Nemo tonight as motivation.
As much as I didn’t want to drag myself out of bed early on Monday, I got up and headed to an open water swim practice at Fort Ritchie, which is where I’m doing my 1500m swim “race” this coming weekend as well as a triathlon later this summer.
(Side note – while driving out there, I realized just how painfully hilly the bike course is going to be. Need to practice that.)
The practice was exactly what I needed. They had a 150m course set up so I swam it ten times, though not without some breaks to chat in between the first few laps. The swimming part isn’t the hard part for me. The hard part is all mental. I felt like I got comfortable more quickly than I did at my previous OWS, even though the water was equally cold. But I still don’t love open water.
I’m a little apprehensive about Saturday’s swim. 1500m is far. It’s actually two 750 loops, where I’ll have to get out of the water, run on the shore and then get back in, so that’s a good mental break. And I just need to get out of my head while I swim. I told Liz that one trick I’ve used is to sing a song in my head, and I just have to get back to that. Time to put on the Frozen soundtrack and make sure I have the entire thing memorized so I can sing it as I swim. Don’t be surprised if you hear about a woman doing the backstroke while singing Let It Go. (Kidding – I hate backstroke.)
It’s reassuring on some level to know how many people don’t love open water swims. Somehow, that makes me feel better. I’m not totally crazy. Doesn’t necessarily make the act of getting through the swim easier, but it’s good to know I’m not alone. And the more practice I do, the better it will be.
This weekend was all about trying to get back to a normal schedule of workouts. Well, as normal as a holiday weekend can be.
Saturday, I got up and headed out for a run. I figured I’d go for about 5 miles or so. Ended up doing a very sad four. My body just wasn’t into it. I’m definitely going to have to get myself back into running shape. Thankfully, I don’t have another half til August, and am only doing 5ks at the end of triathlons til then, but I would like to get back to doing a comfortable 7-8 on the weekends. And I so need to pick up the pace.
Sunday, I went out for a bike ride with the Princeton Sports group. It was awesome as always. We rode last year’s Iron Girl Columbia course. I have a love/hate relationship with that course. It’s hilly, which is good and bad. Bad in that I have to get my ass up those hills. Good in that I can really cruise when going down. Though I’ve discovered that when I hit around 35 mph going downhill, I start to freak out a bit. That feels just a little too fast. I’m sure I’ll get used to it and learn to position myself to go even faster. After all, every little bit helps when I get to the bottom of the next hill.
These rides are always a bit of hit or miss for me. The team is great, but I’ve discovered that how I feel after my ride depends on where in the pack I end up. If I can get in with a group of like-paced riders, I do awesome. I can push myself to go faster and really enjoy the ride. But sometimes I end up stuck in a pack of slightly slower riders, which can be frustrating and leaves me feeling like perhaps I didn’t get that good of a workout. (Of course, when the slower riders are following the rules of the group and riding single file so that I can pass, it’s not an issue, but well… that doesn’t always happen. Oh well.)
However, I have to remember that just because I might not be going as fast as I would like, I’m still getting in a good workout. Especially since I don’t know how my race days will go. Sometimes in a triathlon, you find yourself stuck in a line of riders that you aren’t quite fast enough to pass. So when that happens to me, I have to learn to ease up on my pace and ride without having to ride my brakes. It’s not a bad thing – it allows me to save my legs a bit for the run. Of course, I would prefer to be able to ride at a pace I’m happy with, but seeing the positive side to every training ride is good.
Plus it’s fun to cheer the newer riders up those hills. At which point they look at me like I’m crazy because I’m able to talk while powering up a hill. I am a woman of many talents.
There’s a meme going around today with an image of Arlington National Cemetery with the caption “Just in case you thought it was National Barbecue Day.”
Today is the unofficial start of summer. It’s a day that Americans like to spend outside. I will be outside myself, taking advantage of the long weekend. But at some point today, even if only for a second, take a moment to remember all the fallen soldiers, many of whom died so that you have the freedom to enjoy your day without worries.
I am so very tired. My body doesn’t do well on little sleep, and that’s where I’m at right now. Lots of extra hours at work, lots of time in rehearsals. But tomorrow, tomorrow I get to sleep in. I cannot wait. I am putting in ear plugs and wearing a sleep mask and sleeping as long as possible. Yes, it is entirely possible that the cat will wake me up at 7:30.
Of course, then I have eight thousand things to do before I leave on Sunday, but at least I will get to sleep.
I love sleep. Me + sleep = <3
So I haven’t been working out at all. Stretching, to try to continue to fix my back, and visiting the chiropractor, which is always entertaining.
This week has been insane with the crazy amount of work, but I’ve realized how lucky I am to work with an awesome crew in the office. We’ve managed to weed out the bad seeds and the new team we’ve assembled rocks. It’s so awesome to spend the days with people who pitch in wherever they are needed.
And on that note, there is some hole punching calling my name. No job too small!