So last night were callbacks for solos for our choir Christmas concert. I didn’t get called back. I can’t say I was surprised. I’m amateur good, but I’m not professional level good. Which makes sense – I don’t train vocally. I gave that up in favor of other hobbies.
Still, it hurt a bit to not have my name called. I was sitting with another girl who also didn’t get called.
And when the final results were announced, no one was surprised. It was probably a relief to not have to compete against those voices in the final round.
I admit, part of me is saying that I will never do it again. That it wasn’t worth it to put myself out there because I knew the results beforehand. That even though I knew, it still hurt a bit, and really wasn’t something I wanted to repeat.
But I put myself out there. And I did something different. And that’s always a good thing. Who knows, maybe it will make me less reluctant to do something scary at a later date. Either way, still worth it, even though things didn’t go my way.